So far, Venus retrograde has been good to me. I had a lovely moment a few weeks ago when a dear childhood friend who I lost returned (gotta love facebook) and we are very happily back in touch. But coming up it looks as though she has some pretty heavy stuff to show me and I wonder if I can take it? As many astrologers will warn you:
When archaeologists discover the missing arms of Venus de Milo, they will find she was wearing boxing gloves. ~ John Barrymore
As someone who’s chart ruler is Mercury and at the highest point of my chart (conjunct the mid-heaven) I have come to respect, prepare and appreciate Mercury’s regular do-over periods and have learnt a lot about the value of slowing down, taking notes and paying more attention to my inner landscape during this period. And waiting for practically everything in my life to stall and start over differently each time….
But this Venus retrograde has me running scared. Mainly because I’m not as in touch with this planet as I’d like in my own chart (she’s squished between my sun and mars all in 16-17 degrees Aries and often vocally expresses her dislike of this placement like a stroppy beauty queen forced to clean the smelly men’s locker room after the big game) but she does rule my moon (Taurus) so I like to think that she’s a little more empowered with this placement and will only take orders from Mars and the Sun for as long as it suits her.
There’s a few reasons why I’m already disliking 2009′s retrograde phase. Firstly, Venus is in my natal sign (Venus in Aries) so I feel reasons to be nervous and expect that there will be some events coming to me during the phase, whether I like it or not. A lot of interesting things are being said about Venus retrograde through this sign, never forgetting to mention how Venus is so obviously uncomfortable in Aries. I think this is all a bit insensitive. Try having it natally and then come and talk to me about how Venus feels in Aries.
Secondly, another gripe, with Venus in 17 degree Aries means her retrograde period is dragging out my Venus return no end which is like watching a pen rolling back and forth on an uneven desk and you’re holding your breath waiting for it to roll fast and far enough just to fall off….and worse! in my Venus return chart she’s not a happy bunny. Sure, she’s making a nice conjunction to Mars (but as I have this aspect natally I’m hardly expecting it wil mean very much) in the 2nd house so I’m going to be loving my securities this year. Saturn’s in the 7th house and Aquarius is rising so the less said about that the better. But it is happening on May 23 and the almost the day of the stellar conjunction of Jupiter, Chiron and Neptune which are all rising in the chart so I figure it might not to time to throw it all in just yet. But I’m not breaking out the bunting yet either.
Third and most irritatingly, this means she is now going to be retrograde in my Solar return. Brilliant. Oh, and did I mention Libra is this year’s SR ascendant so not only is she incapacitated, she’s also the chart ruler. Better and better. GAH. Interestingly though, SR ascendant is cover my natal fourth house so home, family, emotional issues seem to be the lay of the land this year.
To put it midly, I had a truly horrific time of it with love issues last year (SR Venus in the 9th on O degrees Aries square Pluto in the fifth) so I had high hopes that I would have earned some nice love karma (you can’t cry that much and not have the universe take pity on you, surely?), that I could look forward to a new romance or ten but nooooo she’s in the 6th house of my Solar Return so I’m going to be loving to serve others, or my work or my health. What. Ever. I’m seriously thinking of travelling far west of UK (like to Greenland) to see if I can heckle her into the fifth but I don’t think that’s part of the master plan. And then she’d be squashed into the same house as a frightening Uranus-Mars conjunction already occupying the SR fifth house (and I suspect ready to do their worst)
Everything happens in cycles, right? Well, I’m superstistious enough to think if I try to dodge this one it could only be worse in the end so I’ll just have to live through another year of thinking all men are almost entirely crap….my thanks to Venus. Thanks for nothing.